only chaos

i cannot find

words

to make something out of nothing

i cannot find peace

to make hope out of chaos

i cannot find light

to make beauty out of darkness

darkness

darkness all around-

surrounding

crippling

tearing

rending;

making me loathe myself and all i have ever been

and not been.

who am i?-

they tell me-

they try to define me-

worthless,

clinging,

sliding,

desperate,

selfish,

and falling-

at last-

alone.

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6 thoughts on “only chaos

    1. I kinda-sorta didn’t mean to write it. Or post it. I just closed my eyes and let my fingers figure out which words were going to fall out of my confused emotions and onto the computer screen.

  1. Praying for you!!
    Philipians 4:8
    “Finally, my bretheren, whatsoever things are true….honest…just….pure…lovely….of good report….think on these things.”

    Don’t know what all you are going through right now, but wanted to let you know you have a friend who loves and praying for you (A couple it looks like too:). Don’t despair…..God is always faithful!!
    I love you!

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